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This Tug

Love, Out Loud | Mixtape
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Love, Out Loud | Mixtape
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I had perfectly good reasons not to fall for you.

Circumstance. Geography. A friendship I didn't want to lose.

None of them were enough.


Somewhere between distance and desire, the tug took over.

Lyrics

[Verse 1]

Thirty-three years dissolved
In one eight-hour lunch
Old high school friends
Like we'd never lost touch

That goodbye hug still lives in me
I wanted more than I could show
Shoulda kissed you
But scared to risk us
So I let you go

 

[Pre-Chorus]

I said, "Burn the house down"

I was craving a detour

You volunteered as tribute

Like you knew what we were in for

I wrote a manifesto

Rules to keep us safe

You ignored them all 

And loved me anyway

[Chorus]

There's this tug, this ache

Pulling me under

Damn this equator

Still you wake this hunger

Baby, you're the craving

I can't break

This tug

This constant

Beautiful ache

 

[Verse 2]

Morning voice notes wake me

Danger calls at night

Pure heart, dirty mind

You undo me right

You let me see your heart

I let you see mine too

All my walls fell

I opened up to you

You're the dream I stopped dreaming

But somehow you've come true

Loving you out loud

Is all I want to do

 

[Pre-Chorus]

In our second chapter

But it feels like page one

All those years were just the prelude

To the life we've just begun

You call me your queen

And now I understand

I found my king

Before I'd ever held his hand

[Chorus]

There's this tug, this ache

Pulling me under

Damn this equator

Still you feed this hunger

Baby, you're the craving

I don’t wanna break

This tug

This constant

Beautiful ache

 

[Bridge]

Somewhere in our future

There’s a house that's ours

No equator between us

No counting down the hours

So many firsts still to be had

For us to make our own 

As if our souls always knew
Our last love would lead us home

[Chorus]

There's this tug, this ache

Pulling me under

No equator between us

Still you are this hunger

Baby, you're the craving

I won’t break

This tug

This constant

Beautiful ache

Baby you’re my constant

Beautiful ache. 

[Outro]

Took us thirty-three years

To find what we almost missed

You were my friend before forever

Now forever starts like this

Maybe some connections don't disappear.
They just wait for the right time to pull you closer.

© 2026 by Nita Benadie.

All words, music and feelings reserved.

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