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Happy Birthday Baby!

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There are some things I wish we'd got to do when we were young.

A mixtape, for starters.

You know... one of those ridiculous little collections of songs you make for someone when you're seventeen and don't quite know how to say what you're feeling... so you let the songs say it for you.

We missed that. We missed a lot of things, actually. And then, somehow... thirty-three years later... we rediscovered each other.
 

And what I found on the other side of those thirty-three years was a man who makes my heart race, my soul soar, and makes me laugh until I cry... who sees me in ways I didn't know I could be seen... who makes me feel safer than I've ever felt... and who somehow manages to be both the purest heart and the dirtiest mind I've ever fallen for.

I love the man you are, baby.

Your humour. Your tenderness. Your ridiculousness. Your sassholery. Your fierce heart. The way you love. The way you make me feel.  And most of all... the way you've made "us" feel like everything I dreamed love should hold. 
 

And now, as we embark on this journey we call "us"... we have so many ah-mazing little firsts in store...

So, knowing that this is the first mixtape I've ever made, and that it's the first mixtape you've ever received, makes it feel strangely perfect... because somehow, after all these years, you're the person who made me want to make one in the first place. 

It's not meant to be perfect... heck, it's not even finished. It's just the beginning.


Two little songs, specially for you... hopefully enough to make your heart smile.  It might be a little (or a lot) cheesy, but I kinda really love that this thing we have going on is punctuated with our own special brand of fromage. 

The big idea behind this mixtape is that we get to keep adding to it... creating songs as our story continues to unfold... because that's what a mixtape is supposed to be, isn't it?
 

A collection of moments.

A little time capsule of us.

A soundtrack to whatever this beautiful, magical, crazy thing we're doing becomes.

A record of all those firsts still waiting for us.
 

Because that's the thing I love most about us...
 

We didn't get our first chapter together, but somehow... we got a second chance at the story.

And I don't think we're anywhere near the best part yet.
 

So this one starts here...

A little piece of us... made with an massive amount of love... 

I love you Mark.

Forever. And Always.

Jay x

Here's to all the firsts we missed...

and all the ones still waiting for us.

And here's to the last birthday we'll ever spend apart. ❤️

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